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| I know you don't believe it, but I actually decided to post something new today...........of course, if you never check this site, you'll never know I've updated.........Anyway, I'm still trying to be the best wife and mom I can be.......Sometimes I'm not really good at it, but my family doesn't seem to notice.....or maybe they're just too polite to tell me. Something else I'm working on: trying to learn how to make and keep friends. I'm very glad my kids have that skill, because I sure don't.....yet. The older you get, the harder it is to change and learn things, especially the stuff you should have learned when you were a kid.
Okay, that's it.....can't think of anything else 'cause I'm tired.....I love you Wess, Justin and Kyra!!! Oh, and I love 2 other kids that I think about often and I hope they're doing okay......
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| I know, I haven't updated this in a while, but other stuff has been taking up my time. Especially this new job I have on the weekends. 12 hours a day is rough. And I truly hate this job. It's so outside my range and comfort zone. My poor husband is also working on the weekends, as well as 40 hours during the week. (No, this is NOT an invitation to my kids friends that they can come over when we're not here and party! I WILL find out!) Anyway, I'm so worn out during the week that I can't seem to get anything done. I just don't have the energy.
To add to my worries, there are 2 kids in my life that I've known since they were babies, and that I love almost as much as my own, that are hurting right now and I can't do anything about it. I'd like them to know that I care about them, and that I'm here to talk if they need me. One of them writes such sad things on his site, and it breaks my heart to see him so sad. I can only hope that the parent that caused them this pain wakes up and sees what he's done, although that's not very likely to happen. I'm an understanding person, and I'd like to think that I'm a nice person, but right now I don't think I'd be able to be very civil to this man if I saw him. I'm just very angry and hurt, I guess. And if his kids are reading this, please know that I don't hate your dad, I'm just really mad at him right now. And know that I love you guys and I read your sites often, and I understand how you're feeling. I promise that life gets better as you get older.....that goes for my kids too, by the way.
One more thing....I caused my husband a major amount of pain recently, and I want to say, as publicly as I can, that I love him, and I promise to never hurt him like that again. He is my heart and soul, and the only man I will ever love.
Maranda
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| I just got done looking at my daughters' site and it just about broke my heart. I wish I could protect my kids from shit like that, but the awful thing is, I can't. The only thing I can do is let her know that I love her and I'm proud of her. I know that she's hurting but 6th grade girls are fickle and mean. They really don't understand that they're laying the foundations of adulthood right now, and a weak foundation won't hold up very long. I believe my kids are laying strong foundations, and I'm proud of them. Kyra, just ignore them. They're silly and empty-headed, and are missing out on a good friend in you. When they come crawling back, asking for your friendship, SAY NO!!!! You don't need friends like that, baby. Justin, thank you for standing up for your sister. That's the best thing you can do for her right now. There's an advantage to doing that, you know. Just like you are laying the foundations of adulthood, you're laying them for a future relationship with your sister, too.
Yay for both my kids! I love you!
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| Hard. Yep, life as an adult is a lot more stressful than I was led to believe. So many responsibilities: bills, housework, raising my kids, calling my mom.....I get overwhelmed sometimes. But, life is also fun. Like taking walks with my husband, joking around with my kids, driving my new car........So I guess the moral here is that life is a balance. And I really do love my life, but it wouldn't be nearly as fun without Wess, Justin and Kyra.....I love you guys!
Maranda
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| Well, I was sick yesterday and couldn't go out to dinner with my husband and our friends. But Wess took us out to eat as a family, instead. We went to Walmart afterwards and Justin found a bunch of artificial roses and handed them to me. He said "Happy Valentines Day, Mom. I'll love you until these flowers die." See why I say I'm the luckiest woman in the world? Wess gave me a beautiful card, surprised me with flowers, and took me out to a nice dinner last night. Last week, he bought me a car.....is this man great, or what? I don't know what I did to deserve all that he gives me. I can only hope he never tires of me.
That's all I have today. I'm still feeling sick and can't think past the nap I'm going to have in a few minutes. I leave you with this thought today: There is no remedy for love but to love more. Henry David Thoreau
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